Relax

Again I was up all night. There is no one to blame but myself. I wanted to stay up reading on my Kindle. Now that I can read again I'm behaving as it can get snatched away again. Because it will. That's just one of the many abilities I will lose as my Huntington's disease progresses. As it is now, my comprehension is like a child with ADHD, I am very easily distracted. This is because my mind can no longer concentrate on more than one thing at a time. I  used  to multitask so this is very frustrating. 

A Flock of Seagulls-"And I Run"

I have some very exciting news. There will be a guest blogger over the weekend. Its someone who I read on a constant basis so I'm looking forward to reading the piece.

Today's Double Feature-Frankie

Frankie Goes To Hollywood-"Two Tribes"

I love this video because it captures the feeling of the time so well. I remember the fear that our ally the United States would get nuked by Russia. In this video you see the two leaders fighting it out in a wrestling ring.

Frankie Goes to Hollywood-"Relax"

There are four videos to this song, and those are just the ones I know of. Several of them were banned by various stations, so they finally released a  video where Holly Johnson is simply singing with a generic background. Another featured the Brian DePalma movie Body Double. The banned versions had references to sex, as if this song wasn't explicit enough. When this was popular there was a fad to wear t-shirts that stated "Relax" on them. I owned one, but you would be surprised at how many people wore them and didn't realize the song was about sex. 

This morning I drank another cup of eggnog out of the cartoon. A neighbour had an extra carton and had dropped it by on New Years. Egg Nog is loaded with calories so I use it to supplement my meals. All the fat makes the sugar calories stick. Its also nice to drink because its naturally thick so I don't have to worry as much about it going down the wrong way.

Gary Numan-"Cars"

I received the results of my swallow test this morning. It isn't good. Food is leaking into my lungs. I am going to have to adjust my whole eating style and start thickening my liquids. I have an appointment with a therapist to help me learn to eat properly next week. Its scary stuff and sometimes I feel like my HD is attacking me from the inside out like a nasty  parasite.  

Sometimes I wish my HD would go on a holiday. It would be nice to live a carefree life for a few days, instead of being worried about my actions and thoughts. I don't see it happening though.

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Morning All

After playing "Space Age Love Song" by Flock of Seagulls I've been stuck with their other song, "I Ran" in my head. So for the sake that I can get that piece of crap out of my head here it is. 

A Flock of Seagulls-"I Ran"

I'm cutting back on my Twitter time today. I found myself justifying my use by deflecting. Wrong way to go, Paul. It was like the time I said I'm not an alcoholic while I justified my drinking by switching from Beer to Bachardi (Yeap, I did that one).  That means I have to make sure I don't slide over to Facebook.  

I'm the king of parallel addictions. I was actually reading that alcoholism and drug addiction have a higher rate in Huntington's Disease patients. If true, it would not  shock me. In my case I was drinking when a late teen and then just kept drinking until I had tried to take my life. Since then I've maintained some good sobriety. 

I do know that as an HD patient I'm going to loose a parent, which to the average person is a known stressor. I'm also suffering from compulsive thoughts and actions which I take medication for. I'm also planning on starting a new type of therapy for this and we'll see how that works next week.

craigslist tv: Drinking Buddy

I love this show. As someone commented it should be on those ads where they justify the existence of the internet.

Men Without Hats-"Safety Dance": 

I'm having troubles sleeping since I stopped the Lyrica. That was a powerful knock out drug and my body misses it. Right now I'm wishing my eyes were closed and I was dreaming of this little village.

Nena-"99 Luft Baloons"

My whole body is screaming to sleep but I can't cross the line to the nice sleepy clouds 

Eddy Grant-"Electric Avenue"

Eddy puts me in the mood to watch some Ross Kemp in Jamaica. If you haven't seen him I highly recommend it for good entertainment. 

 Falco-"Rock Me Amadeus"

This is one of those songs that good speakers were bought for. 

Kim Carnes-"Bette Davis Eyes"

Sleep, come to me. I'm calm enough now DAMMIT! 

I'm really not going to get this, am I? Its time for me to settle down with my phone and read a book on the Kindle. 

Morning all!

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