Thursday, 18 October 2012

HD is a creature of habit

Well, don't say I didn't warn you. Its been really tough to get back to writing this blog just as much as I thought it would be. As I mentioned in that post, HD is a disease that causes some of us to become creatures of habits, both old and new.

Baby David is now waking up in the middle of the night. He's generally still a content child. With me as his father, I'm shocked, I tell you, shocked!

Casablanca's Gambling Scene

All joking aside, I never thought I'd feel the way I do toward my own child. As I've written about many times I never expected to have my own biological child. After seeing what HD did to my mother I couldn't bring a child into this world that ran a risk of getting this terrible disease.  It was only during the testing process when Jane brought it out that there is technology now so that our child will not suffer from the illness that will take his father that I even considered it. Even then, I thought Jane would be the one and only caregiver.  I never expected to attach to our baby as terrible as that sounds. I just didn't see it happening. 

This next song describes how I thought Jane and David would think.

Helen Reddy-"You and Me Against the World (Lou Rawls Show)

Not that I didn't think I'd be attached to David, just not even close to this extent.

Me attached to my biological child? Concerned how seeing HD effect his father? No, not Paul Ware. That must be another man.

Joni Mitchell-"The Circle Game (Live 1967) 
Can you tell by my choices in music today that my sister's positive test result is still on my mind? She loves late 60's and early 70's music even though she's my baby sister. God, its even hard to write what you tested positive for Sis. I'm sorry you tested positive for Huntington's. I know you want me to be able to say it. I just did. 
So for you, one of your favourite artists singing a song that is about as non-HD as you can get. 

I love you.

Gordon Lightfoot live on the American tely show Midnight Special  -"Sundown (1974)"

Back to David, that's not to say I thought I'd be a lousy Cat's the Cradle type of Dad, just that never saw myself wanting to cradle him, him, feed him, and hold him on my chest much less feel lousy I can't change him.

Harry Chapin-"Cat's in The Cradle"

I saw on Twitter on Tuesday on October 23rd that Depeche Mode will be having a press conference. Most likely this is what the band referred to earlier this year. That's basically the announcement of their tour. 

I only hope they will be playing the Santa Barbara County Bowl again. Since I've given up driving for the most part, concerts out of town are a real pain in the butt. Also the last time I saw them a special thing happened that is just so County Bowl (for those that don't know, its a small, non-arena venue. They play here because Martin Gore lives in town).

Depeche Mode-"Walking in My Shoes turned into Enjoy the Silence"

At least they can laugh at themselves, which is more than I can say for Jane. This was the one and only concert of theirs she's gone to. Thankfully, I have a friend that will drive me down and another to meet us  if its out of town. I don't see him as often as I'd like lately, but he'll be coming up if they play the bowl as well so I'd rather have the intimate atmosphere.

Recently I had the chance to see Elvis Costello in concert. He played for over two and a half hours here without a break. I've always really liked his 80s music, Veronica was just the topping on the cake.

Elvis Costello - "Veronica" 

 For some random reason I've found myself listening to a lot of Queen lately and thinking of Trish Dainton and her husband Steve. They were giant Queen fans. She lost him a bit over a year ago to Huntington's Disease. She also is a poet and wrote a wonderful book on HD Curse in Verse and Much More Worse. (Yes Trish, I'm still pushing your book, its that good).

So when I came across this wonderful video of Queen interpreted in American Sign Language (the translation is here at the link) Trish was the first person I thought of.

Queen-"Bohemian Rhapsody" (Stephen Moore in ASL)

 On that note, its time to close up.

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